Chapter 9: What the Verdict Felt Like


I was not in the courtroom when Cordelia Voss was convicted.
I was in a physical therapy gym three blocks away, learning to trust my reconstructed leg on a set of parallel bars, when Jonah called.
I let go of the left bar and took the phone with my free hand.
"Guilty," he said.
"Attempted murd3r in the first degree.
The financial fraud charges will be sentenced separately, but the DA expects the judge to run them consecutively."
I gripped the right bar.
"And Adrian?"
"Accessory before the fact.
Guilty.
Sentencing is next month." A pause.
"Fitch tried to get Cordelia's conviction overturned on the recording issue one last time.
The judge didn't let him finish the argument."
I stood there on the parallel bars with my reconstructed leg taking my weight for the first time without Dominic's hand at my elbow.
It held.
"Jonah," I said.
"Yeah."
"Thank you."
He was quiet for a moment.
"You did this, Lillian.
I just carried the folder."
I almost laughed.
It came out as something close to one — rough and real and surprised by itself.
Dominic was watching me from across the room with his arms crossed and his head tilted, waiting to see if I needed him.
I shook my head slightly.
He nodded and stayed where he was.
I took one step along the bars.
Then another.
The leg ached — it would ache for months, Reyes had told me, and then one day it would simply ache less, and then less than that, until I stopped noticing it except in cold weather.
"What happens to the estate?" I said.
"The financial fraud conviction triggers asset forfeiture proceedings.
The DA's office is working with the federal investigators your old firm referred them to.
The foundation donors are being notified." Jonah paused.
"Gerald Fitch withdrew from representation after the verdict.
Cordelia's new attorney is a public defender."
The woman who had told me that rich people always won.
Who had stood at the foot of my bed and said she had done this before.
A public defender.
"The Voss estate," I said.
"The house."
"Liens have been filed.
The creditors are lining up." He paused.
"Your name is on a civil suit as well.
Your attorney filed it last week.
Wrongful injury, loss of income, pain and suffering.
The estate has significant assets even after forfeiture.
Your attorney believes you'll recover substantial damages."
I took another step.
"I don't want the money," I said.
"I know," Jonah said.
"But you should take it anyway.
You spent six months in hospitals and rehabilitation.
You lost a year of work.
You almost d*ed." His voice was even.
"Take the money, Lillian.
Use it for something good."
I thought about the donors.
The four point two million dollars given in good faith to a foundation that had spent it on private accounts and estate maintenance and a railing that had been deliberately weakened.
"The donor restitution fund," I said.
"The DA's office set one up."
"They did."
"Whatever I recover in civil damages above my actual losses — I want it directed there."
Jonah was quiet for a moment.
"I'll tell your attorney," he said.
I reached the end of the parallel bars.
I stood there without holding on, my weight on both feet, the reconstructed leg trembling slightly but holding.
Dominic walked over.
He stood beside me without touching me, close enough to catch me if I needed it.
"Good," he said simply.
I didn't know if he meant the leg or something else.
May you like
It didn't matter.
Both were true.