Chapter 8: The Picture on the Refrigerator
On Saturday morning, Estelle came into the kitchen while I was making breakfast and climbed onto the counter stool without being asked.
She watched me for a while without speaking.
That was unusual.
Estelle was not a quiet child by nature.
"Dad," she said finally.
"Yes."
"Is Lorna coming back?"
I set down the spatula and turned to face her.
"No.
She's not coming back."
Estelle considered this.
"Ever?"
"Ever."
She nodded slowly, the way she nodded when she was processing something she had been carrying for a while.
"She said my picture was wrong," Estelle said.
"The one I drew."
"I know.
Lenette told me."
"It wasn't wrong."
"No," I said.
"It wasn't."
Estelle slid off the stool and went to the refrigerator.
She opened the drawer where we kept the art supplies — tape, markers, the good scissors — and pulled out a fresh sheet of paper.
She carried it to the kitchen table and sat down.
I watched her draw.
She worked with the focused silence of a child who knows exactly what she wants to make.
When she finished, she brought it to me.
It was the same picture.
Three figures.
Tall one on the left, small one in the middle, medium one on the right.
Stick arms.
Circular heads.
The small one in the middle had a large smile that took up most of its face.
At the top, in careful, uneven letters: MY FAMILY.
"Can we put it back?" she asked.
I took it from her and walked to the refrigerator and put it in the center, at Estelle's eye level, held up with the same magnet that had held the first one.
Estelle stood back and looked at it.
"Better," she said.
She climbed back onto the counter stool.
I went back to the eggs.
We ate breakfast together at the kitchen table.
Estelle talked about a girl at school who had a rabbit.
She wanted to know if we could get a rabbit.
I said we could think about it.
She said thinking about it usually meant no.
I said this time it might mean actually thinking about it.
She looked at me with Diana's eyes — that specific shade of brown that still caught me off guard sometimes — and decided to believe me.
After breakfast, I called Marcus to thank him again.
He told me to stop thanking him and take my daughter somewhere fun.
I called Ruth in the afternoon.
It was a short call.
Careful on both sides.
But at the end of it, we agreed that Estelle would visit her the following Sunday.
Supervised at first.
Slowly.
The way things that have been broken are sometimes, with patience, made whole again.
That evening, Lenette made her lamb stew — the one Estelle called the best thing in the world — and the three of us ate together at the big table that was usually too large for just us.
Estelle fell asleep on the sofa afterward, one sock on and one sock off, her head on a cushion and her drawing hand curled loosely near her face.
I carried her to bed.
Pulled the blanket up.
Stood in the doorway for a moment the way parents do when they are not ready to leave yet.
The house was quiet.
Not the quiet of a night spent waiting for something bad to happen.
A different kind of quiet.
The kind that settles in when the thing you were afraid of has passed and the people you love are safe and close and breathing.
I turned off the light.
Walked down the hall.
Made two cups of tea — one for me, one for Lenette, who was still in the kitchen — and sat down at the table where, not long ago, I had sat alone and afraid and unable to sleep.
Lenette wrapped both hands around her mug.
"Better?" she asked.
"Better," I said.
Outside, the evening was doing what evenings do.
The street was quiet.
A neighbor's dog barked once and then stopped.
Somewhere down the road, a child was being called inside for the night.
We drank our tea.
The picture was still on the refrigerator.
It was not wrong.
It had never been wrong.
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*Some people come into our lives pretending to be something they are not — and it takes everything we have to protect the ones we love from the damage they leave behind.
But sometimes, when we look around at who stood with us through it, we realize we were never as alone as we feared.*
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