Chapter 10: June Seventh
The morning of June seventh was clear and dry, which was not something the weather in Bellmare could be relied upon for.
I had kept the date.
Patricia had confirmed the Ashcombe booking in my name three weeks prior.
I had changed what the day was for — not a wedding, not yet, maybe not for a long time — but I had kept it because my grandmother had chosen it, and I was not going to let it become nothing.
I invited nine people.
Patricia Vane.
Margot from the atelier.
My friend Caro, who had been with me since university and had cried when I told her the whole story.
Three colleagues who had sent flowers without being asked.
An elderly neighbor, Mrs.
Okafor, who had known my grandmother and cried when I told her about the Saturdays.
Sienna.
And my mother.
Not a wedding.
A lunch.
At the Ashcombe Glasshouse, which was exactly as beautiful as I had always imagined it — all glass and pale oak and the light coming through at the angle that turned everything golden.
I wore the gown.
Not because I had somewhere to be with it.
Not because anyone had asked me to.
Because my grandmother had spent sixty hours at a worktable building it for me and I was not going to leave it in a cloth bag in a wardrobe in my flat.
Margot helped me with the buttons that morning, in the small anteroom at Ashcombe, and when she stepped back and looked at me she pressed both hands to her mouth.
"Nora would have—" she started, and then couldn't finish.
"I know," I said.
The lily-of-the-valley sat close against the silk.
My own hours and my grandmother's hours together, indistinguishable, which was the point.
At the table, Sienna sat across from me.
We had not been easy with each other yet.
We were not going to be easy with each other for some time.
But she had come, and she had worn the small gold earrings our grandmother had given us both, and when she looked at the gown, her eyes filled.
She didn't say anything.
Neither did I.
My mother sat at the end of the table.
She was quiet through most of the lunch.
She watched me more than she spoke.
Near the end, when the plates had been cleared and people were talking in small groups by the windows, she came and stood beside me.
"She would have loved this," she said.
"Yes," I said.
"She would have."
My mother looked out at the light coming through the glass.
"I'm going to do better," she said.
Not loudly.
Not for anyone else.
Just to me.
"I know," I said.
And then, because it was true: "I want that."
She touched my hand.
Very lightly.
Just for a moment.
And then Caro appeared with two glasses of champagne, entirely unbidden, and pressed one into my hand and said, "Right.
To Nora.
And to Juliet.
And to wearing the dress on the day you meant to wear it," and everyone raised their glass, and the light came through the Ashcombe Glasshouse the way light comes through glass that was made for exactly this.
I thought about six o'clock on a Sunday evening.
My phone lighting up.
My hands going cold.
I thought about the brass bell above the door of Atelier Fontaine.
I thought about a woman with her reading glasses pushed up on her forehead, sitting at a worktable on three consecutive Saturdays, choosing every thread, writing a letter she hoped I would never need but made sure I would have.
I raised my glass.
The room was warm, and full of people, and the gown fit exactly as it was made to.
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*Sometimes the people who love us most build the roads back to us before we know we'll need them — quietly, carefully, without asking for credit.
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